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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 06:22:45 GMT

last night went to sing k with old LNSS frds, got to bed at 8am, and woke up by a phone call at 11am...

it was an unexpected phone call, i was first mad, then touched, and lastly annoyed.

this moment, i just want to share my feeling with myself, or with whoever else who bother to read my blog...

for the past 23 years of my life, i made decision solely based on what i liked, what i felt was the right thing to do, and what i wanted. and if it was a wrong decision, there was no one to blame but myself. i've always been like this, i haven't change in the past, and i am not planning to change in the near future. after all, why should one change his personality on purposely just to impress others?

yeah, may be there is only 1% in me that is counted as good, and the remaining 99% are worthless shit, but hey, i only wanted a happy life, and if i have to bear 99% shit personality to be happy, fine.

you are right, may be in times i am selfish and self-centered, but this is my way of life, and if everyone in the world objects it, all the people around me, all my frds abandon me for being what i am, so be it. for i believe people comes in all sizes and shapes, there is no benchmark for a person's personality.

believe it or not, i treated all my past relationships very seriously, but when things didn't work out, when i thought there were no love anymore, what am i to do? drag on? hoping one day it will comes without knowing when this day will come?

so what if bad words get spread around about me? so what if my image diminishes everytime i break apart from a relationship? i live by my way of life, let it be breaking up with the girl who treated me better than she treats herself, what goes around comes around, i only do things that i think are right. may be someday i will make up with her, who knows?

to those who hate me, disgusted by me, criticise me, go ahead, i couldn't care less, for i don't think i have done anything wrong. there is no fairness in love, there is no equation for love...

this is the first time i got so put off by a person...

Friday, October 23, 2009

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 04:53:56 GMT

懂得叫別人堅強，不要想太多，但關了燈後，眼淚卻不受控地一直流著...

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 17:32:41 GMT

天空灰得像哭過
離開妳以後　並沒有　更自由
酸酸的空氣　嗅出我們的距離
一幕錐心的結局　像呼吸般無法停息

抽屜泛黃的日記
榨乾了回憶　那笑容　是夏季
妳我的過去　被順時針的忘記
缺氧過後的愛情　粗心的眼淚是多餘

我知道妳我都沒有錯
只是忘了怎麼退後
信誓旦旦給了承諾
卻被時間撲了空

我知道我們都沒有錯
只是放手會比較好過
最美的愛情　回憶裡待續

22/10 a full stop for our 9months relationship, lets treasure what we've experienced

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 07:25:29 GMT

Happy 9 months anniversary

9 months' gift from lp (Tor肥仔+Tor肥女)

8 months' gift from lp

Enough tears, be strong Tif, a whole new chapter awaits us

我至愛至錫你啦lp

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 15:46:45 GMT

補番，8個月快樂lpj tif

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 02:07:38 GMT

哈，聽日就飛返香港啦，雖然飛來飛去我都已經麻木晒，但今次有D唔同既係，我係"回流"返HK啦終於都 ...(omg~回流好娘呀XD)

回頭一看，不知不覺間我已經響英國讀左9年書(柴九:人生有幾多個十年XD)，期間不停期望今日既來臨，但當真係到左li 個時侯，又反而覺得無乜特別，哈人真係奇怪~

返到香港有咩等住我真係唔知，哈，識我既人都知我係見步行步o個type既表表者，明天的事明天做村村長...人生既第一個chapter正式結束，第二個chapter即將開始，終於都要投身社會啦我都XD，感覺上遲起步過好多其他同期一齊讀書既frds，但係唔打緊，我一定會搵好多好多$$$架！哼！(其實我仲係樂天派長門...hahaaaha~_~///)

唔知出黎做野係咪真係會改變一個人既性格既呢，哼但係我一定要打破li 個定論，由我黎改變我身邊既人啦！改變埋我將來老細！XD (瞇之聲: "人黎，call青山呀" =v=)

31/08會係我最後一日留響英國啦，返黎之後首要既當然係...休息下先啦XD，跟住就開始搵工！然後儲錢儲錢出黎租屋住！！！唉平時返HK兩三個星期對住兩老已經嘈到嘔血咁滯，如果一年365日連續幾年都咁對住我諗我一定支持唔住，一係就自殺，一係就殺佢地！XD (講笑~)

anyway, i had alot of memories in the UK, good ones and bad ones, and i would remember them for the rest of my life, especially those English peeps from BSC, you guys are some of my closest friends, i still remember all the those things we've been through together, all those water fights, throwing cold water into the shower, comforting me when i was picked on by Thomas N, playing bumbs on middle green (most memoriable lol), crashing at Reardons, and much more~

for me, the most memorible times in UOB would be 1st year and 2009, in 1st year i had tremendous fun! all those parties and drinking! and especially the time we spent dinning together at BoBo's room! i had some hardest laughter in there, omg bullying BoBo was fun haaaha, throwing her mini pellow out the window, locking her out, watch 周星馳's movies during dinner, water fight and completely destroyed her room XD, etc...and 2009, even though nothing really happend much to be honest, it is my first time living with someone for such a long period of time, seeing each other day after day, morning after morning, so regardless what would happen to us next year, or the year after, and so on, i would never forget you tif lpj (so please don't throw my stuff away if things do happen to us XD~ joke =P), lets hope for the best

lol i didn't intend to write so much, oh well, i guess its ok since this is such a "rare occasion" XD

Farewell UK~ the place where i actually grown up from

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 02:31:06 GMT

Happy 7 months

I U tif lpj

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 21:09:10 GMT

原來dissertation係比想像中難同麻煩好多，oh my god!

唉，一半想8月快D過咁就可以快D返香港，但另一半又唔想8月咁快過驚做唔切份野>.<"...想死ing

Monday, July 27, 2009

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 21:16:38 GMT

Troublesome...=_=

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 01:24:35 GMT